Saturday, February 13, 2010

Zola writes to Kiers

Dear Kiersten,
I love you very much!How are you...Happy Valentine's Day.
at school I was crying because I missed you. Miss Morgan called from the office. Mr. Sweedenborg to come juggle to me because I was crying, and he juggled with my SHOES! It didn't work. I made a card to you. I went back to class and was feeling a little bit better, but I still missed you.
I had somebody in my class named Chelsea play me and I played you and then as soon as we went outside it got cold, and then we had to go in for indoor recess.
We called on your birthday and left a message.


Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Happy Birthday.

Oh, my Little Angel.
You are six today. You should already have started Kindergarten. You haven't seen your baby sister since she turned one. You haven't seen your baby brother, Lee, since he was only a few months old - you may not even have remembered him because you were playing with Brendan.

We called.
There was no answer.
Zola left a message.

We bought a card for you and a Cookie and Dora horse set thing.
You should be getting flowers tomorrow ... due to all the snow and stuff, they wouldn't deliver today ... there will be a bear with it. I hope you like it.
I hope you like the flowers we sent for Christmas.

How do I keep the flood gates from opening?

1yr 8mos 1wk 0days - last seen
0yr 9mos 1wk 5days - last heard

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

thread of hope...

So it has been a while since I have posted an update...

It breaks my heart to write about Kiersten ... to call and have my phone calls ignored. The stress from this entire situation has caused health problems that have had me in and out of the doctor's office since May.

I can't handle looking at the notebook I was writing for Kiersten anymore, so I've started an entirely different notebook. This one is for all of my children, and I have started collecting little lessons I want them to know.

It's kind of interesting, I started that notebook because, at the time, we were waiting on results from an MRI ... my neurologist was sure I had a brain tumor because of all the different issues I was having. I was so afraid that I was going to have a brain tumor, and I wouldn't live through it. Leaving behind my babies without getting to teach them all sorts of things I have found essential to life scared me. I wanted a way to be able to teach them anyway, even if I wasn't here.

Thankfully, I do not have to worry about that right now ... but I've kept this journal going anyway. I write it in the hopes that Kiersten will see it one day. I pray everyday that she doesn't forget us ... this is my tiny thread of hope: she will become 18 one day and decide to look for her siblings. I have no hope she'll look for me because she is being told I am not her mommy, and I don't care about her. But I hope that she'll look for her siblings, and they will tell her how we prayed for her everyday at home and how I have these notebooks and journals that I wrote with her in mind.

Right now, my biggest heartbreak in this whole ordeal is Caelyn. Most children have an imaginary friend that goes everywhere with them - my 3yr old has decided that Kiersten is her imaginary friend. Caelyn pulls out a necklace or a doll and says that her Kiersten gave that to her. She talks to Kiersten's pictures on our wall and fridge. She tells Kiersten to come play on the trampolene with her ... share her bike ... have some of her icecream.

It has been 1yr 4mos 2wks 3days since I've seen Kiersten.
It has been 5mos 3wks 1day since I've talked to her.

Monday, June 22, 2009

growing weary....

I tried so many times to get my legal aid lawyer to do anything, and I got a letter in the mail dated for April. She said because my case is not a domestic violence case, she has dropped it.

May 19th marks one year since I saw my little baby girl. I got to talk to her around Easter, and I haven't talked to her since then.

All this pain is taking a toll on me. I've started to develop some health problems now that are a result of all this.

I just want my little girl.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

the last few months

I get to talk to Kiersten about once a month now. I talked to her on Christmas day, and she said Mommy! I miss you! She asked Zola why she can't see us anymore. It was good to talk to her, but so sad to hear her think that we don't want to see her.

I talked to her again in January - I call every week, but they don't answer the phone or return phone calls. When I talked to her, she kept mumbling about hating something ... I finally got my phone turned up high enough to hear her say that she hates the new house and she wants to go back to her old house. She said that they left the old house and aren't going back.

I have had a legal aid lawyer since November ... it took her a month to call me to say that they accepted my case. She must be very busy, because it usually takes a little while to hear back from her. I just got off the phone with her in the middle of my posting, and she said that they never got the paperwork that we sent to her office or anything, and she is still trying to contact their lawyer before she does anything with my case.

I am purchasing a sewing machine soon to start making purses out of placemats for cash. I will post pictures if anyone is interested in them so that I can try to hire the lawyer in Greensboro. I do have to have my wisdom teeth and a couple other molars that cracked removed in the next week or so, so that may slow down my efforts a little.

Please keep praying!

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

How can you help?

If I am going to get my daughter back, I am going to need help.

We had lots of circumstances happen, including replacing three vehicles in three months due to mechanical issues, and we cannot come up with the retainer in any timely fashion at all. We are still paying medical bills from my other children.

These are the needs we are facing:
Prayer needs:
*Kiersten. No matter what happens, she has lost her father.
*wisdom and discernment for the judge in this case.
*God's will to be done.
*comfort and strength for everyone involved in this case - no matter who "wins" there will be a losing side, and it would be nice if it could hurt just a little less.
*peace. This is a very hard situation, and I would like you to pray for peace for this situation. I don't want this to be a bitter battle that does irrevocable damage to the relationship between her grandparents and me.
*my children and husband at home. This is stressful for them, too.

Monetary needs:
*3,000 dollars for the retainer to try to win back my rights.
*1200 dollars to recover the costs that we lost in the scam and repay my parents.
*75 dollars for the visit with the local lawyer here.
*gas money to travel back and forth to court and lawyer appointments - one trip costs a little over 50 dollars.

If you can help monetarily, I have included a button below to donate to a secure paypal account. This account will be monitored *CLOSELY* and this button will be removed once we have made it to our goal. Every little bit helps. Five dollars here and there - if you have a change bucket like I do, I rolled eight dollars in pennies! Anything is so greatly appreciated and would help.

The legal battle I've had so far

I tried, immediately, to hire a lawyer for Kiersten. May 19th, my van broke down halfway between North Carolina and my dad's house. We had to stay at my dad's house for a week while we waited for my husband to have a day off work to be able to pick us up.

My parents helped me pay a large portion of the 1200 dollars to hire a legal team to file papers requesting custody of my daughter. They turned out to be a scam. When I got the paperwork back from them, it was totally wrong. They stopped returning phone calls and emails and seemed to disappear off the face of the earth. They are still charging 50 dollars to my checking account every month, like clockwork, and I am fighting with my bank to try to get that to stop.

July 1st, the North Carolina courthouse cashed my check to send the original paperwork for custody of Kiersten, but I never recieved my papers. I called them in August, and they said to give them time. October, I called again, only to find out that they sent the papers to the wrong address.

The day I got the papers in the mail, I went to see a local lawyer, but she said there was nothing she could do for me - she couldn't even advise me how to begin, much less just draw up a set of papers for me to file myself.

So I made an appointment for the soonest available with a lawyer in North Carolina, four hours away from here. This lawyer is willing to help me, but he needs a 3,000 dollar retainer to start. He said that the lawyer the grandparents have hired is a high powered attorney that will do anything to win and has lots of connections. This isn't going to be an easy fight, and it will be quite costly, too.